It’s my last night at the cottage and I will be very sad to leave. I’ve had a wonderful time walking, reading, writing, napping, catching up on CSI thanks to the wonders of Freeview at the cottage, and discovering a new firm favourite – the Gilmore Girls. Fabulously written, and very well acted – I want to live there!
Being in the middle of A.A Milne country I have seen the Pooh bear bridge, went to piglet’s house – but he wasn’t in and also got to see the enchanted place, which was beautiful and peaceful. I had bought a Winnie the Pooh book to read whilst I was up here, and the story that stayed with me was the last one called “The Enchanted Place”. It’s here where Pooh and Christopher Robin leave each other, presumably for Christopher to go to school, and there is a moment between them:
“Still with his eyes on the world Christopher Robin put out a hand and felt for Pooh’s paw.
“Pooh,” Said Christopher Robin earnestly, “if I – if I’m not quite -” he stopped and tried again – “Pooh, whatever happens, you will understand, won’t you?””
My week here has made me excited about soon being able to have the time to pursue my own interests, but there is a doubt that I might not be able to achieve whatever I think it is I want. I’ve often felt this, and shied away from putting myself in a position where I really have to test myself. That time is now running out. I have three more weeks of job security and then I suppose the real fun begins!
My boyfriend is picking me up tomorrow morning, I have spent all day writing and working on my short stories so tonight I’m packing up my laptop and relaxing. I have a can of Dr Pepper, a pork pie, some Twiglets and a Muller yoghurt that I ironically ran 5 miles this morning to buy…
I still return to that cottage every now and then for a week out to just think and write. It’s been 3 years since I wrote that piece and looking back there are so many steps to celebrate. It’s not been at all as I imagined it would be, and there were certainly goals I missed but I continue to move forward and trying new things. It’s the only thing to do 🙂
Ali Davies says
Your post highlights two essential factors for creating what we really want – 1. Time and space for creative thinking, creating change etc. 2. Mindset and how it can either help or hinder us. Interesting to reflect how both of these factors have been a part of your journey since you wrote this.